I am mothering from a place of high honor.
“Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also and he praises her.”
I don’t know about you but I have a list of baby names. For years, this list existed and was changed multiple times. To this day, this list is contained on my phone in my email drafts. My husband and I talk about baby names a lot. I love it.
I’ve always wanted to be a mom. I knew that that was Gods plan for my life. Taking care of kids and mentoring children is something I’ve always been good at. From babysitting, to youth group, to the kids I worked with, I’ve always enjoyed that aspect of my life. For a long while, I only wanted to get married so that I could have kids. Which is why I didn’t get married until I was 30, I needed to love my future husband, kids or no kids.
My husband and I got married pretty quickly. 5 months after we started dating. It was awesome. We were so in love and super excited to start our lives together. When you know, you know… you know? We knew we wanted kids, but we weren’t really trying to have them. But that all changed in June, 3 months after we were married, when that positive pregnancy test popped into our lives.
From the moment G was born, life turned upside down. Countless doctors appointments, unanswered questions, and tear-filled prayers have filled my life for the past 20 months. She’s a joy and a blessing, but God has made her life full of challenges. I love being her momma.
The way she lights up when I walk into the room. The way she kneels on the floor and raises her hands to have me pick her up. The way she gets so excited when we get excited that she’s taken a few steps. She wants to be with me and she loves when I play with her. I love cuddling in the chair watching Elmo or reading a book. I love when she leans up and wants a kiss. I love being her momma.
I want to have more kids, G needs some siblings!! It’s really hard right now because our lives aren’t really ready for more kids. I believe that God has a plan for us and that plan includes more kids. I am blessed to have my little girl and I will be blessed when I have more children. God has blessed me with this wonderful vocation.
I know that there are a lot of women who want to be mothers but haven’t. been blessed with that just yet. I implore you to just lean on Jesus. His plan is sovereign and he holds you in his hands.
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’”
2 Corinthians 12:9a
“Cast your burden on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.”
“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.”
I know its hard to wait for something you’ve always wanted. I can’t imagine that pain. But I know that God’s plan for you is greater than anything you could ever ask for or imagine. Hang in there. I’m praying for you.
With Light and Love,